Etiquette

 I feel betrayed.

If I knew the guy that raped you, I wouldn't invite him to events where I knew you were going to be in. Let alone talk to him, keep him in my life.

And now, I'm mad at myself, why is this still a problem? And then, I'm mad for being mad

and sad, and hurt.

Specially when you know that I don't want to see that person ever again.

Maybe it isn't even a set up.

Maybe you just don't even care.

You don't think about it.

It didn't even cross your mind.

But it still hurts.

I'm feeling this tightness in my chest.

I can't stop thinking and spiralling about it.

Feeling.

I just wish this wasn't affecting me anymore.

That I was able to leave it

BEHIND